i'll start with the easy stuff...

...there's love stuff to discuss, but I'm not ready. Getting there though.

i think i've found the best doctor on earth...or at least the best doctor i've had in my 30 years. She's so great i'm afraid to pass the word, because I don't want to share her. so selfish of me. i think i love her. oh well, if anyone needs a primary care doc in NYC, let me know. see, not so selfish afterall.

I'd been self-diagnosing and self-treating my allergies, or what I thought were allergies, since early April. My eyes felt gritty and sore, and I wanted to do nothing but keep them closed with bags of ice on them. I wasn't myself. I was miserable, and miserable is not what you want to be when you've just settled into a new job and you want to put your best foot forward. The worry in my boss' eyes started to make me uncomfortable--so although I was already on several prescription meds for hay fever--Astelin, Nasonex, fexofenadine, Pataday, and Elestat--I bit the bullet, took the day off, found a doc two blocks from home, and went. Long story short, it's not all hay fever. I have a sinus infection and a bacterial eye infection. So, I'm antibioticked up, feeling better, and that's one less thing wearing on my mind and my body.

But there is stuff on my mind. I so want to get into that stuff...the hard stuff. But I'm gonna be patient. I refuse to write the story until I know how it's gonna end.

p.s. a big, warm xoxo for all my fellow bloggers who have said such kind things in the Comments :-)

p.p.s. at this very moment, I'm watching 16 Candles--best teenage movie ever. Or quite possibly, tied with Pretty in Pink. I love it, I love Molly. I love Anthony MH. I loooove Jake!! And I love how the 80s makes every teen seem sweaty and awkward with bad hair--as they should be. "Lemme borrow your underpants for ten minutes." I'm gonna download the soundtrack...